07.22.22 ( 07:02 AM )

mood angry.
weather sunny.
buttercup (i'm a super girl) - shonen knife .

so much has happened in the last month since i've updated. none of it good. i've become so depressed and frustrated with everything. i've been trying to channel this negative energy into a hobby or some kind of positive outlet but i feel like i'm fighting a losing battle against some kind of curse or universal karma. how can so much go so wrong so fast?

in an attempt to cheer everybody up, i planned a summerween party. i broke out all of the halloween decorations and lights, lit the cozy fall candles and even made some spooky halloween recipes! we watched horror movies all day and played games to win candy. it was a lot of fun! from now on, i am only chasing dopamine₊˚ʚ ᗢ₊˚✧ ﾟ.

06.26.22 ( 09:24 AM )

mood sleepy.
weather rainy.
high regard - the story so far .

hi! i'm madison layne! and i'm weirdly concerned for some reason with how i come across online??? like, i was never good at the about me sections of websites or writing a bio or even introductions. my myspace profile used to say "i will never be able to describe myself in a single paragraph that will always ring true" and that still applies (which i guess makes it a false statement?).

i'm an artist in limbo. my creative side has been crushed by chronic illness and the resulting depression. getting stuck in beds or hospitals for long periods of time will do that to a person i guess. so obviously, the solution is to make a website, right? a place where i can escape from modern social media, the constant need for perfection, and most importantly, the bad news weighing me down day after day. i miss the internet of my childhood.